I am new to the site and just needed to talk. I have dealt with depression when I was younger but it has never been this severe. I don't want to eat or do anything else. During the weekend I lie in the bed all day. I have 3 wonderful children and all I do is cry. I try not to cry in front of them, but sometimes I can't help it. I get into arguments with my fiance all the time because I am hurting and I want him to fix my pain. I just start crying and can't stop. I talk to my friends about it but I feel like I am burdening them with my problems. I have all these emotions and thoughts going on in my brain that I just want them to stop. I feel overwhelmed and don't know where to start. I am not sure if it is postpartum depression, because I didn't have it with my 2 sons. I am afraid that I am going to lost my mind and can't recover. I have set up appointments to see a therapist, it just takes awhile to get in. These feelings are starting to be too much for me. I really want to commit myself but what about my kids? What will happen to them? None of my family is here for me. I just feel alone. I just want someone to listen to me and help me fix what is broken inside of me.