Well, after my bf kicked me out of his house for being honest for something he did and saying things like "I'm going to decapitate your cat", and throwing a box of cigarettes at me, I went back to my place for a week.

Then I went to visit my best friend and my ex bf knocks on the door. Next thing you know we are talking, saying we will be more kind and considerate of eachother and not say mean stuff that we really don't mean. One thing led to another and I moved some of my stuff back in this afternoon...he's been on again, off again about it. I missed him before but now I see what a self-centered narcississtic jerk.

Plus we are both bipolar (both on meds, both on therapy). And again, tonight he brings up taking me back home again tomorrow.

I have finally had it with his ********. I don't care if he begs me, I'm not coming back. He changes his mind so much about so many things that I just can't keep it all straight.

I don't think he should treat me this way and I think he knows this. He is just so nonchalant about it all, telling people that ask, "well, we're kind of taking it day by day. I can't live with him wanting me here one day and away the next.

When I gave him a second shot, I told him I was moving to Vegas on March 11th and we decided to just keep things light, fun, enjoyable. Having to move my stuff back and forth (including cats) is anything but light, fun, enjoyable.

Once I get back home, I just want to say to him, you know, "if you could stick to one choice or the other" but he's just such a narcississtic jerk. Compared to this guy, I seem pretty stable.

I missed him the first time because he was good to me until stuff blew up between us, but now that he says "the honeymoon is over" and I see all his negative bs, I won't be grieving for him.

I just had to get this out...

He will not be hearing from me again or seeing me after tomorrow. I know he won't learn from this lesson as I just found out that he's don'e this over and over with other women.

So I will leave him to his video games and his revolving door of women. I deserve better.