I'm at a loss over this one, Ariesmars.
The quest would certainly be frightening and probably painful. Would it be worth the pain? Sometimes the answer is yes, sometimes no. Sometimes you can't know until you've gone and done it.

What are the chances she is the same person you knew? How have you changed?

I can't draw from my own experience in attempting to offer you ideas. But for one friend who still lives far away where I grew up, my ties to that time and that world are all severed.

No matter what you choose to do, I and your other friends here have open ears for whatever you need to say.