The longer I've been on SSDI and not working, the worse I've become at structuring my time meaningfully, and allowing myself pleasurable activities. I've become very restless and unfocused. I also have a pattern of thinking of 3 or 4 different uses for the same time block, and then getting confused and indecisive. I have to coax myself back to the pleasures I once enjoyed, mainly creative activities. Maybe setting a timer, telling myself that I'll sew or draw for 15 minutes. I've often then wanted to continue the activity longer, finding myself immersed. Sorry if this is a tangent. Seems sort of related.