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I've been diagnosed with ADHD about two years ago and my psychiatrist said that the Concerta will help with my anger outbursts and overall irritability. Well, the the medication is working for my attention issues and my grades have gone up to nothing worst than a 90%. However, my irritability and anger hasn't gotten any better. I've made my parents feel horrible for the longest time because I can't control my actions and what I say that hurt them emotionally, I feel like a horrible daughter. I appreciate everything and I love them with all my heart but I just can't seem to control myself even though they tell me I can. I feel like nobody understands how I feel and why I act out like that but if I knew myself, I would control it, which obviously, I can't. I often can't stop thinking/stressing out over anything and everything, I have expectations too high for myself, I feel too obsessive-compulsive with trying to perfect everything, I often think too fast for what I am physically capable of doing, I can go from feeling amazing to feeling like garbage in a minute, everything I do wrong/mess up can make me feel down for a while, I constantly feel stressed, I shake my legs/feet without realizing it (I can't sit or stand still), I get random pains (and I'm a very very healthy person) in my chest and I'm getting headaches almost everyday (I got my first headache when I was about 16 so I don't generally get them, I'm 17), I hate relationships (romantic) I just don't know why, sometimes I feel like I don't know who I am anymore, I don't understand why I'm always irritable/angry and mostly for no reason, I have nightmares a lot, I don't feel tired when I should be dead asleep, I'm very active (I play basketball, do cross country, and track/field) and I like to overall be outside and active, I just wish I knew exactly what all this is. I don't like thinking I have any kind of mental/psychological problems but I'm almost certain that it is something like that considering I feel uncontrollable with my thoughts and actions just about all the time and I have a more than amazing home life with a loving family. I also seem to never feel emotions towards another person in a romantic way. Please, if you have anything beneficial that could help me figure out why I am like this and or what it is, don't hesitate to message me or comment on this post. (I'm new so I'm a little unfamiliar with how the threads work.)
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