To not end my life.I am trying sooooooooo fkng hard right now for the sake of how it'd impact my sons.It is the only reason I am alive.I am sooo tempted.I have the means...the will...the fearlessness and the rage to slip past my willpower no problem.If someone reads this please take a moment ....and try to direct thoughts of healing in my general direction.I am weak in this moment...send strength....You've no idea my feet are slipping on the edge of a cliff right now.I really need to remain for my boys.I need to breathe....just let it go.Ooooooooohhhh help.Please dont post pity.I dont want it.Post strength if you post anything.