maybe the "intense" sessions need to be set aside for a bit and some coping sessions come to play...?...
at least, that's what has worked for me... when things get so HUGE that I feel i'm drowning-- that's when T. gets the coping tools out and helps me to pick some out and gives reminders of their use.

also-- it could be a good time to have your 15 and 11 year old son learn how they can help at home.(that is if they don't do much to help you presently) I never thought of this until T. kept bringing it up-- so... I finally decided to give it a try.... doubting it would matter. I was so amazed to see the self-esteem in my sons increase as I saw that they were actually feeling like they were a part of something-- making a difference in our home. It WORKED!! I couldn't believe it. I was not raised in a house where everyone worked together-- it was each one for her/him self.... I had underestimated the importance of feeling that-- team/belonging stuff.

well, not sure if any of this can help-- I do so wish you some relief.

keep posting-- we are here listening.

fins