thanks for all the support. It means a lot to me. I wish I could say I am fine and not worrying but I can't. I am totally freaking out. I have had 2 xanax tonight and am still shaking. I just can't live if he takes the boys away from me. They are the joy of my life. I hate that he gets to see them anyway, he was the one child protective services was called on. He was the one who beat me up. Now I have nothing. If he comes over I can't call the police, if he doesn't pay me, I have no recourse. If he keeps the children I have no legal custudy. He knows this, he always said he would take the children if we told anyone what he did to us. He said he would tell everyone I am crazy. But we have never hurt anyone ever! He has. I am just so scared for my sweet boys. I just want them home. We can't stop crying.