i SI lastnight i dont know why i woke up about 1 and couldnt get back to sleep just worked up and decided to SI.i have therapy and i so want to tell her but i know i wont i guess that i am even thinking about saying something realistically i a step in the right direction.i am so calm about going maybe this is why i did it last week i had SI and i was ok with going to T and i was able to talk maybe it calms me enought to talk IDK