Oh boy, biggy. When I started trying to sort through my owwies with medicos, I carried a list, in word and stick drawings of childhood injuries, hoping somebody could /would match them up for me, and then fix them.

"Oh well" on that pipe dream... I've come to believe that my current conditions are cumulative impacts from physical and emotional abuse. Like the physical stuff wasn't dealt with let alone lovingly, so it got stuck in me. Ane the "freeze everything" effect of terror and no emotional support.... complex questions, no easy answers. So many layers to everything.... all I know is, everything matters.