oh its okay, it really really is. its no worse in fact if u shared some then in the scheme of things its a little bit better. But just the initial telling wont be a instant cure, which im sure you know. Please be kind to yourself. This is a process that your starting, it will feel easier then harder from time to time.
Today just go do something you enjoy. Find a place where u can stop thinking about it, enjoy the moment and place that u are in, even if u only do it for a half hour. Can u do that for me?
Your T is still there, u can tell a little more soon.