She is very cool! Since Dec. 7th, I have been taking journal notes to every session. She gives me assignments each week. I start with that, but also write whatever comes to mind. That is scary. My mind is a dangerous place sometimes!!

Allowing her to read them out loud to me was the most freeing experience I have ever had. I was losing it while she read it, so she kept stopping to make sure I was okay, and asked if she could continue. It was a horrible thing to go through at the time, but so worth it in the end.

I asked her if she has ever had a client bring such detailed notes to therapy. She said, "No, you are the first, but that's okay. It helps you stay focused. This is what you need to do. This is how you process your emotions. It is working for you and that's all that matters. Don't keep comparing yourself to everyone else. You are a unique individual that deserves to be heard and to heal in whatever way you need to."

PG~You are such a natural at writing. Do you ever share any of this with your therapist? I can't say what will or won't work for you. Maybe you could try having him/her just read one paragraph out loud to you? There is something validating about having your words read back to you. At least it was for me. I felt like, "Hey, I AM being heard!!"