hun, I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. and that you're cutting so much and it's not getting better. I know what that feels like. I used to cut a whole lot more in h/s as well and recently I started going back to some of those things.... and I don't even know why. but I know it sucks. I don't know a lot about your b/f but it sounds like there's a lot of conflict....and that he's not very supportive. is that right? does talking to him help at all??? he's sure not helping you by being mad at you for no reason.... I know it's hard to get yourself out of your house but maybe therapy and just getting out of your house would help a bit? even just therapy. not the "chores" or "social obligations", hell, that's the last thing you feel like doing, I know... but I dont' think staying at your place much longer in that env. w/ all the negative thoughts is going to make anythign better.....
glad you can come here though and have all this great support. wish I had more answers.....