I'm sorry I write so many posts...I truly am alone. My T helps, but I guess that doesn't count much in terms of a support network and I don't like to disturb him in between sessions. I have my boys who I love very much and my husband, but he has such a hard time coping with my MH issues. Those are the only people in my life...

I was holding it together. As long as I didn't stop, I could keep the depression at bay. Well, it kinda blindsided me by how intense it has become. I don't know how to get my feet back under me. Everything takes so much energy now, energy I don't have.

Medication, therapy - they play a role in keeping me alive, but they don't keep me from falling apart. I'm frustrated. I've spent years working on this, I have my ups and downs, but the downs are getting more frequent and more intense.

I'm scared this is how it will be forever - just barely hanging on