I am on medication at the moment. However i still feel guilty at times. I got the idea from people in the church that doctors and meds weren't needed and that we should stand in faith, etc. I believe God heals. There was a period of maybe 3 years where never took anything for pain. I can remember being really sick with infections and flu's and headaches but refusing to ever take anything to help. I used to really suffer because i thought that i was makng my faith bigger. I was very stubborn and I wanted to be strong in faith. Now I take antidepressants and even anxiety meds. had a few wise christians who helped me to understand that it's ok to take medication. people take medication for high blood pressure and stomach ulcers etc but when it's got to do with mental illness some people get all religious and say we have demons and that sort of junk. It annoys me. Church people really messed with my head for a while but now i can see things better. I still love god and go to church and believe it's just that I don't think things are always as simple as, 'say this prayer and you will be fixed.' It doesn't always happen like that.