It's a relief to hear I'm not the only one. Though it's awful too. Why do we let ourselves be disrespected like this?

This is my first "real" relationship - yeah you might be questioning the "real" part!

I guess I have always had a problem - that if I speak my mind I will lose everything and everyone I care about. How weak is that? I do what people tell me. I totally thought I had got past that but it looks like I haven't. I hate being such a doormat.