I have never been to a gynacologist....this is bad I know, I'm 31 and never had a pap test or anything.

I have only been active sexually in the past couple of years and only with 1 partner. She's clean and I'm assuming so am I.

I just can't go, I can't bear the thought of anyone being down there. Part of it's to do with the scars...I self harmed on my thighs a lot when I was younger and I am ashamed to have anyone see that. I don't know how to get over the fear...I have nightmares about it. I know I should go and get checked but......I'm starting to panic just thinking about it.