hey wolf,
I have been where you are an it isnt easy to get back up, keep thinking of your kids think about the posative not the negative live because you god dam deserve to, life can be awful and full of friction but eventualy all that friction causes us to shine an be renewed! your right to take your life wouldnt take long it would be over quickly but all the people you leave behind have to deal with thoses asctions for the rest of their lives! stay strong!