hi wepow,

i just read your poem, but i thought i'd comment about this part of things over here. it seems (based on what you wrote) that you've definitely come to associate "doors" with other really bad things.. like being closed in to bad situations. it's not surprising that it's been difficult to feel like the door has been closed between you and your therapist.. like you're on the "scary" side of the door, and there's the whole big barrier (the door itself) between you and someone that can help you (your therapist) navigate through the scary times.

maybe you can work on finding postive associations with doors (and other boundaries in general) when you go to therapy today. it might be cool to even do some physical work with the door itself, like standing on either side of the office door while it's closed and talking to each other - just so you can begin to understand that your therapist is still there when you can't see him, or when there's a closed door between you two.

seventyeight