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I know for me, when some of my needs start to get met, it's like all of the little parts inside wake up and start looking for all of THEIR needs to be met. And when we've never ever had our needs met, that's a LOT of needs.

The awareness of all of that neediness is painful for me. And it's like...there's T, and I can *almost* have them met....it feels so close to being possible...but it isn't. And then there is this grieving about what I didn't get and never CAN get.

And that sucks.

That may not ring true for you at all, but that's what your post reminded me of.