((((((((((((Lexicon)))))))))))))) I am so sorry you feel you have to resort to cutting right now. It sounds like things are overwhelming you and you are having such a difficult time coping. I wish you would reconsider seeing your counselor when you so need them. Maybe even a phone conference would help if you feel you can not leave home.

Maybe you could look at your relationship with your b/f and decide how good it is for you. It appears that he is sometimes indifferent to your feelings. Maybe I am wrong and hopefully I am.

Maybe you can try some of the tactics you have so generously given to other people on the forum instead of cutting. I know sometimes it seems that it is your only outlet and that the other options are not as attractive nor seem as effective.

Please try and be safe and feel free to contact me at any time.