I left my abusive husband almost 3 months ago. Since than I have lost a job, moved into a 3 bedroom trailor with 8 people and sleep in my car. I have been trying to find a job since but no one will hire me. I have no criminal back ground, lots of experience but no one is hiring.

I've sold everything I own just to feed me and my daughter. Now after letting her father spend Christmas with her and his family, I can't get her back. He promised me the money he owed me when I picked her up from his parents but now he says he already left and forgot the money. So here I am with $30.00 to my name and my daughter in a completely different state waiting for me to pick her up.

I can't pick her up. I go there run out of gas on the way back than she and I starve to death because I have no money for groceries or diapers. I applied for food stamps and was given $180.00 a month for that but you guessed it, food stamps are out for this week and wont get any more until the 10th. Food stamps don't buy diapers.

How is saving my life ruining my life. How is it that when I do something good for myself, something to make me happy, that my life ends up getting worse than it was to begin with. With how tight money has been lately the thought to go back just so I didn't have to worry about startving has crossed my mind, but I wont do it.

What kind of sad world do we live in when the only way for a woman to keep her and her daughter alive is also a way that could end up killing her?

What do I do now? I can't pick up my daughter who I have only seen once in the last 17 days. My daughter who is my everything and my daughter who I should be able to take care of.

I sleep in my car in 20 degree weather, I've sold everything I own and I go days without eating because I have no money for food. Now I can't even get my daughter back. My world is falling apart before my eyes. I'm trying to pick myself up and get on my feet but it's impossible it seems. What do I do now?