((((((((((((((((WWIE)))))))))))))))))
PLease please PLEASE don't think this about yourself. PLEASE talk to your T. Right now. Or someone!

You are beautiful and unique, you are NOT a failure. I wish I could reach through this computer and be there for you, I have been exactly where you are right now. I don't know how to help you but I don't want you to think this way. PLease ring the emergency line or something, I found it damn hard to do but it was worth it, they don't care if you're snotty and crying and rambling incomprehensibly, it's their job to help you