((((MoAnamCara))))

You are not foolish and what you feel is okay. Sometimes when we think we have faced something and it comes back it is because maybe we did not face something that is still there. Sometimes when we go back it may be because we are facing a deeper part of it. It does not make you foolish.

I do not think you are weak. When we face hurt and abuse it is not a sign of weakness but of strength. It is not your fault. I know for myself many times because of what happened as a child I do not know how to react to things as an adult. I never learned the right way to react or how to protect myself.

I know the feelings of shutting down and how hard it is to talk to my t at times. Sometimes it is impossible. Maybe write it out and give it to your t so that she can read it and then guide you. Sometimes that is easier than talking. Somethings are hard to talk about and you will as you continue to work through what happened.

You will get through this. It did not take over night to get to where we are and it takes time to get through it now. But you can do it. Thank you for sharing and know that you are not alone. We are listening and care. Please keep reaching out and posting.

Sending gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps