My 15 year old son has been on the depression/anxiety roller coaster since he was 9. He goes to school online after battling the school with truancy issues and a lack of support for his emotional needs. Part of the way to avoid another round of truancy issues is for him to keep up with assignments. For the past 2 days he has refused to do homework, refused to get out of bed, and is sinking fast! The worst part is he won't talk to me. When he has been at his worst I have always managed to get him to open up. Now he just tells me it doesn't matter because he wants to die. Hospitals won't accept him because they have limited beds and he is not, in their words, "actively" suicidal.

He sees a therapist, but sometimes the aftermath of dealing with all the pent of emotions leaves him reeling. I can't count how many different medication combinations we have tried over the past year.

I tell him I love him. I tell him that I'm on his side. I tell him that I want him to stick around. I tell him that things can get better. I love my child with all my heart. What if love is not enough?