Is it something about your therapist, or something in you trying to be discovered. A need you haven't voiced before, or had words for before maybe. Or maybe a new longing for, or an increased awareness of what T is, and what T isn't?

Unless it's right after a really good session, I don't usually conjure up great feelings and a feeling of connection when I think of T. Quite the opposite sometimes, even after 4 years.