I think it was splash who said that you really have to take this seriously to get better. Not that any of us aren't taking this seriously enough. I was first diagnosed in May and have been on meds since them. I was first on prozac and I am now on luvox. I have been so frustrated with this whole experience that I have recently stopped taking the meds. I finally refilled my prescription but just keep on "forgetting" to take them. I want to get better more than anything but I still have a lot of anger and I guess this is my way of rebelling. I keep on sabotaging my recovery because I think deep down I might not want to get better. Maybe I want to die. I don't really know. I am very confused with the way all this works. My therapist knows I am suicidal yet she doesn't realize that I have a months worth of luvox. I don't know enough about luvox maybe you can't overdose from it. I got my wisdom tooth pulled recently and I wasprescribed vicadin for the pain. I felt like jelly whenever I took it. It felt so great I fantasized about taking more than my prescribed dose. So I decided to save them. I would hold the pain from the wisdom tooth because I didn't want to waste the vicadin. I never took anymore since I was saving them but I did feel guilty about it. I knew that it was a bad thing so I decided to tell my therapist and her answer was quick and cold. She said "you know, I am probably not the right person to talk to this about. Maybe you should ask the doctor who prescibed them." I was shocked......how could she suggest I speak to my oral surgeon about my suicidal thoughts? I felt very alone because I trusted her and I thought she could suggest something constructive. She could have suggested I give her the pills and she could destroy them, but she didn't. Instead I am walking around with a bottle of vicadin in my purse. For some reason I can't bring myself to throw them out. I was also pretty shocked that my oral surgeon would prescribe these strong pain killers. Well I was in a lot of pain physically burt before he prescribed them he asked if I was allergic to anything. I said no but I did say that I was currently on meds just in case he prescribed something that would interefere with the luvox. I told him I am on luvox...you would think that it might be a little dangerous to prescribe something so strong to someone who is taking a drug for depression. My body is disgusted by all the pills I have had to take in the past few weeks. Thank you for listening.