There's some stupid petty things that make it difficult for me to seek proffesional help. Like for example my husband and I share a car, and he works all day, plus I don't have medical insurance. I don't want these small issues in my life to stop, and hold up, my process to healing. If I stop because I can't see a proffesional, then yes I fear I will one day reach the point were I'll ask myself, why go on?
I have the strength inside somewhere, to get through this on my own. I think researching my alternatives is basically what I can do for myself at this point in my life.
I'm not a religous person, but I love to read and research, and I'm very observant to myself. I honestly think, I can get out of this on my own, and if it gets to the point where I have to go to a proffesional, I'll be aware of it and do whatever it takes to get there.
Alone is pretty much what I got right now.
Desirae