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Idealsummerluvv · Feb 02, 2011, 06:30 AM

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Originally Posted by Can't Stop Crying

I have been on short term disability for a month while I try to pull myself together. I had hoped I would be in a better place by now. I work third shift and I'm due back at work on Tuesday night. I'm scared. My boss is insensitive and a bully.

The pressure is unbelievable. My husband lost his job a year ago and that put me in the role of primary breadwinner and sole provider of insurance benefits. While my husband, thankfully, found another job - it is not close to what he was doing before.

My 2 sons and I need medication and therapy, so insurance is really important right now. I can't jeopardize my job. I am so overwhelmed. Flashbacks have started again full steam and dark thoughts fill my head.

I'm worried about the well-being of my sons. Honestly, when is it enough?
I'm worried I won't be able to focus at work and I'm worried about how my boss will treat me. If I cry, he will write me up for unprofessional behavior. Sometimes the tears just come.

What if I can't do it all?

I wish I could send you a big hug. First of all, kudos to you for working third shift. I did it for 6 years. Some like it but my body never adjusted.

My boss sounds just like your boss's twin brother. Is your boss short, because mine has napoleonic syndrome. He's short and hates women.

I've worked for the post office for almost 18 years and transferred to his office 5 years ago, never having had a problem with any supervisor until meeting this current one.

He seems to thrive on intimidation and threats. He seems to get his jollies when he's pushed women to the point of tears. I hate to admit the number of times I've been in tears after dealing w/him.

He's also a liar and hypocrite. Just one example: one time he dragged me into the office due to an alleged error in a clock ring. He threatened to report me to the Officer Inspector General for falsifying clock rings!!!!! Hello, if anything- it was an error- like I'd swiped over to the wrong route or something.

The Officer Inspector General gets notified when employees are stealing or something serious of that nature- not for an error!

Come to find out- that particular clock ring was indeed correct. He didn't apologize. Of course not. Later he was found guilty of falsifying OUR clock rings and stealing overtime pay from us!!!!!!! The union won a grievance for this and I got about $200.00 from the grievance.

Other supervisors across the country were booted from their positions when they were found guilty of the same crime, but for some unknown reason- our supervisor remains.

I am being treated for pmdd and chronic depression. Was covered under fmla for a number of years but because work hours have been reduced- I was told I was no longer eligible. With fmla- supervisors could not discipline you for using sick leave.

Last month I was able to work thru my private hell but this month is worse and I am taking 3 days off that normally I was eligible to take under fmla. The hours might have changed but nothing has changed with me.

I also feel pressure too because I have chosen to stick up for myself and have filed 2 EEO complaints against supervisor. The first for disparate treatment against women and the 2nd for retaliation.

Sometimes I wish I kept my mouth shut as I am feeling his wrath and my union steward thinks he is out to get me fired. So any little thing I might do or not do correctly- he will discipline me for.

For instance- a couple weeks ago I forgot to scan 2 xpress mail pieces. During that week- I had a conference call with the Administrative Judge and the postal attorney regarding my complaint. I don't have an attorney. I'm doing this by myself. My steward can only do so much as he's not an attorney.

I'm saying the stress of that phone call added more stress to me and it's affecting my work performance. He is trying to make me out to be a bad employee. I say a hostile work environment is affecting my performance.

Anyway, sorry to talk so much about my situation.
I will share some of what helps me. Hope you don't mind some stuff from alanon.

I try to take one day at a time. Live in the moment and try to not fear the future.

I try to accept the people and things I cannot control. I only have control over how I respond to things and people in my life.

I have a higher power and as much as the supervisor tries to shove his authority down my throat- he is not it. There is someone else in charge of all of this. And I place my trust in a higher power.

I feel for you.....

Idealsummerluvv