I can understand your disappointment, MUE. I agree you have a lot to do to repair your therapeutic relationship. What happened with the idea to see another T to discuss what happened? Are you still considering that?

What I noticed about your last session, though I realize you were exhausted and confused, was that your T didn't seem to give you a chance to give your side of the story. He told you how he felt you mistreated him. Maybe I'm wrong about that. If so, I'm sorry. He's got to acknowlege more than just hurting you. He has to own his part in it. I wonder what he would think if he knew so many people offered support to you, understood your pain, and suggested that you get a new T. Would he
just get defensive and dismiss us all?

I'm glad you're taking it slowly and thinking about what to do. I feel confident that you will know what's right as you speak with him more. I don't think there's a definite way to go. If you can work it out and trust your T, that would be great. If not, there will be another T for you.