Yes, I can see why you don't trust words. I don't mean I know your past, but I can imagine that nice words may have been said but actions showed the opposite. So, it is LOGICAL for you not to trust anyone's words. Though I think you trust our words on PC, don't you? When your T shows you enough times, over and over, that she's worthy of your trust, then you will believe it. It's a slow process, but you're going in the right direction.