I woke up feeling confident that t would call me today, thanks mostly to the replies here. As the hours go by, though, I'm starting to doubt whether I will hear from her. It's hard not to spiral out too much about it. I'm going to do whatever I can in terms of distraction, and try to think a lot about how I will be okay, how I AM okay, with or without T. Maybe it is time for it to end. Maybe this is all as it should be.