It took a very long time before I felt strong enough to share such deeply personal thoughts, feelings, and experiences with a T. In retrospect, I can see that I took a deep breath ~ warned the T of my shame ~ and looked down to read the words written in my journal. I was tempted to skip lines (that involved a lot of swear words or intimate memories), but I kept on reading.

My T's reaction: support and understanding, was worth a million $! To not be called a freak or sicko, to have my emotions justified was invaluable.

I recommend that you do the same. Read all of the words you've written (shameful or not), rather than skating around the core issue/s that you've been skating around for so many years. Part of you really does want to talk about it, despite those intense negative emotions, and needs to. Don't kick yourself for not giving in & talking about it in T yesterday. Let it go & bring it to your next T session.

Personally, I recommend that you begin the session w/out shooting the sh^t w/ your T. Instead, automatically say that you have lots of serious stuff to talk about and whip out your notebook to read from. I'd rather read it aloud, instead of give it to the T. Giving it to the T to read brings on more anxiety for me. I ask for no remarks or Q's during my reading...just let me read it...and avoid eye contact for a little bit. That's what has worked for me.

Gentle hugs Can't Stop Crying ~ give yourself a break. You will be strong when you're ready to be.