I am hearing a lot of self deprecatory terms here. 'Alien' and 'ugly' Those are the kind of words my gf uses, "inflicts" on herself and hearing them always hurts like hell.

I know its a long journey, but the first thing to learn is to love yourself. Then you will find you are worthy of being loved too. Then you will see you have a right to be loved.

And is it so hard to imagine that someone could actually love you? Is it so hard to believe your bf when he says that he does?

My relationship with my gf is long distance too, actually she also lives in England. She is suffering from very serious mental conditions which makes just about everything real hard. Yet for me she is everything in the world and I think of her all the time. This kind of love does exist, and I assure you it is very real.