I'm only 27, but I feel so old. I'm close to being 30 and I'm starting a new career (acting), one that i've always wanted to pursue but because my parents constantly pressuring me, i kept avoiding it.

Now, I'm finally getting to do what I want to do, and all of a sudden I feel I have no energy left for it. I just feel overwhelmed all times, and feel like I won't make it and even if i do, I'll be too old and my career will end soon and it won't last as much as it would have if I were starting when I was 17. Most people start at that age or around there.

Other factors contributing to this: My parents are getting old, my dad is handicapped because of stroke and is glued to the bed, that really depresses me. I feel like I will lose them soon, but eventhough I can't get close to them emotionally becuase we are very different, (i was also emotionally abused by them and I noticed they surround themselves with fear all the time, and that fear and negativity gets into me at times and so I try to avoid them but i hate doing that as well).

I have 2 sisters whom I don't get along with, they've been quiet hurtful to me in the past. I feel my parents are the only people i have in this world and soon they might be gone as well, then I'll be all alone...

I just don't know whats wrong with me. Why is being 27 making me feel old?? Its not that old really.. and I have absolutely no energy to do anything at all, I just don't feel like doing it.

Anyone know how I can use cognitive therapy to deal with this? and what this is?

Oh AND, my mom always worries that I'm not married by now. Now, I also start feeling I don't have lots of choices for men out there.. that bothers me too. I'm scared I will pursue acting and won't make it and then I won't have a family of my own either, and I'll be 33 and all alone...

Thanks.