Well, it's taken me awhile to get back here to our little sangha. Congrats to you all for your practice! My meditation yesterday morning was brief, probably under 10 minutes, but a start in getting back to meditating at home, not just in my IRL sangha. I had "monkey mind", thoughts jumping around, but I was able to keep coming back to my anchor, being inbreaths and outbreaths. I've heard it repeated often that the object isn't to be free of thoughts, but to allow whatever arises to arise without judgment, maybe briefly noting "planning mind", "body discomfort", "thought of past", "fear thought", or whatever, and then returning to the anchor.

It's easy for me to start judging "good" vs. "bad" meditation sessions. I get attached to those "good" meditations, and feel bummed out when I struggle again the next time I sit. "Spiritual materialism", it's called.

I had trouble waking up this morning due to a new medication. I lay in bed, instead of sitting, trying to stay with the rising and falling of my diaphragm as I breathed. I didn't stay with it very long. I need to sit through restlessness, which comes up for me a lot. Sometimes, walking is easier when I'm very restless, feeling the sensations of the shifting weight of my legs and feet. I'm going to sit this evening for at least 10 minutes, and listen to at least part of a dharma talk, which isn't a substitute for meditation, but still benefits me and motivates me. I like dharmaseed.org for their library of teacher talks.