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Originally Posted by zooropa
T called. It was bad, about as bad as it could be. I can't even sort it out enough now to tell you what she said. Things about me calling her every day, and her getting burned out. But last week I only called her once. ONE TIME. When I saw her on Monday she asked why I hadn't called her, and said she was concerned when she didn't hear from me. So something doesn't make sense here. I have called her twice since we spoke. I'm spiralling out and I can't stop. Also fairly drunk now. What a mess.
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You know, I wonder if she is still reeling from that day recently when she thought you had SU? Didn't you say she came to your house and was crying? (forgive me please if I'm remembering wrong....my mind is cloudy right now).
That's not an excuse for her behavior now, but it could be a huge factor.
I had a crisis once. My husband was on a camping trip and went missing for 24+ hours. I called old T and she supported me through the night over the phone. She kept me from going insane with worry. My H turned out to be fine. He made a stupid, stupid, stupid mistake, got off-course and it turns out was totally preventable. My T and I had a little delayed fallout from that....at the time she said it was fine and she was happy to support me during that time of not knowing. But a few weeks later, some resentment surfaced. Almost like she had a mild case of PTSD from worrying all night with me. We worked through it, thankfully. But it FELT like she was really angry with me.
I don't know if that's what's going on here with your T, but just wanted to throw that out there.
REGARDLESS, I am SO SORRY you're dealing with this now. I hope somehow you can work through it.
