WOW. I am SO SORRY, zoo.....

It TOTALLY sounds like my T this past week....amazingly and eerily similar. And with my T, it was the weight of his FIL passing away a couple weeks ago that was draining his resources. And here I am, evaluating the aftermath of it - realizing how incredibly unfair it is to me to have gotten the raw end of the stick. I understand he's human. However, as a trained professional in this field, he needs to figure out how to take care of HIM because I am a paying client that needs him to be healthy for ME. They know this.

So, if he feels frazzled and needs an outlet - he needs to figure that out. That's not my issue. Yes, I have to accept that he's human, makes mistakes, it's what happens in real life relationships, blah, blah, blah...

But this isn't the same as a real life relationship. He KNOWS that I rely on him as my primary support. There is such a power differential in the relationship - where I am vulnerable and needy and dependent on T...and he is not vulnerable, needy or dependent on me. So, the suffering that's endured by the client as a result of this kind of situation is exaserbated TENFOLD.

Sorry, I'm just SO MAD for you right now, zoo. You are hurting and you need T - and you do NOT need to get kicked while you're down. I know a lot of my anger is driven by my own experience with my T....and a few days ago when I was in the thick of all this, I wasn't angry. I was desperate and in excruciating emotional pain from it all. It's just not fair.

I'm sorry you're going through this zoo. I really, really am.