got this text from T: just got ur vmail. I will u after to coach u about kids. I am unable at this to process any issue between us on the phone. We can process anything between us during ur session on mon.

I wrote this in reply: How the hell you think that is supposed to work is beyond me. I'm supposed to wait patiently until Mon to find out what I did wrong? can't. Won't. Just nevermind.

So. That's it then. I'm done. Really done. I am sad, very. This is not how I wanted, want, it to end. But I can't see myself even being able to GO to my session on Monday thinking about walking in there and meeting drill sargent T. Waiting to find out how I messed up and how I'm supposed to fix it. I can't do that. Just can't.

I think this is a real douche move on Ts part to not own what is going on with her, to not be willing to work it out with me. I cannot just sit and wonder until Monday and still talk to her and receive "coaching" in the mean time. There are things I can and cannot do, and that is one. I can't do that.

I don't have any hope. I had been thinking about waiting for tomorrow to talk to her, thinking that she would be more centered by then. I don't have any hope now. I don't know what to do.