Oh god, this just keeps getting worse. I just called t and spoke to her. It was pretty awful. I'm not in any condition to be able to type it out right now, but it was bad. I am dealing with some serious behavior issues with my boys today and it is all too much. I had to leave when they kept following me around the house to tell me how horrible I am. I'm just sitting in my car because I'm too drunk to drive. Today just keeps getting worse.

Totally hopeless.