The thing is he has his own psych issues that suck and the one that affects me the most is he disassociates, and right now who could blame him?

I am on meds. I guess they could be better because I've been mildly depressed for a while but how much of that is circumstantial? I feel a little better I found reasons to get out of the house and even out of town so I actually have good distractions but it is just amazing how low my self-esteem is!