Awesome Angel!!! Please remember - you are a uniquely created being, made by God in his eyes. By SI'ing, you are only hurting yourself. It makes no sense. I won't make things get better. The release you feel is only temporary. You are left with the physical scars.
Your desire to SI comes from deeper issues - issues that can be resolved. Issues that will pass. Please don't damage your body, because of what is happening on the inside.

I'm sorry you're going through so much pain, but well done for standing so strong!