I know that the start of my sessions always feel awkward....

I would usually start by asking T how he is....and then he would ask me how I am....and then I'd go from there into what's going on, or issues, etc.

There are times when I'd ask him how he is...and then after he responded, I would say - Don't ask me how I am....

And then last week with our rupture, I sat down and said "Hi"....He said, "Hi" in a short manner....and I asked, "Can you please start this conversation?"....and he did.

I'm not sure what today will bring. I'm leaving in a half hour, and I have no idea how the session will start.

I just know that it's hard to start off a session - it's unlike any other kind of relationship.