Hi, amandalouise!

I've thought about your post at length. And I've thought about my own childhood memories. Like you, I've been diagnosed as dissociative, but as DDNOS, which may not be your diagnosis. There's a lot I can't remember. And what I do remember is positive. That doesn't mesh with what I'm dealing with now, or have dealt with throughout my life, or what happened to me and my brothers.

All my memories are JUST FINE. But from what T tells me that wasn't so. And I have to admit that in order to understand what I've gone through in life, including now, there had to be something wrong way back then. So the conclusion is that I've blanked all that stuff out. And that could very well be, considering the kind of pathology I have to deal with now.

But this leaves me uncomfortable. I feel bad about dumping on either of my parents without absolute proof. As I said, my mom's personality throughout her later life is consistent with the kind of early childhood negative experiences T and I have constructed, but I sure would like to know for a fact that something along those lines actually did take place.

Take care.