((((mue)))) I'm sorry it felt disappointing.....but maybe you are right, maybe there was more compassion there than you were able to or in the frame of mind to see? All I can see is that there is still need for clarification....somehow it seems the 2 of you aren't really hearing each other well enough from my interpretation of the things you've posted. I'm sorry....I know how it feels to try and try and still not feel heard and understood. Sometimes, you just need some time to rest from the effort and then come back to it from a different angle.....
I wish you peace and grace, too......