I have a lot of hope for you based on what you have written here. You have a good understanding of what you have been through, and it sounds like you are ready to heal and to recover your life and your dreams. You are motivated to move ahead. You have the intelligence and determination that it takes to succeed in school.

Do you find your psychologist to be helpful? If you do, then that would be the first person to talk to about your plans for the future and where to go from here. If this psychologist doesn't help then you need to find someone else - someone who believes in your potential and will help you to reach for it. You might consider the school counseling center if one is available, as they will know what you can do about your status with the school and whether anything can be done about your past grades. A lot of schools will replace the failing or low grade if you retake the class.

You really can do this!

Rap