I'm in panic mode again.i have T on Monday and i have this new therapy style looming over me.Tuesday was the worst but i held out sending my T an email or anything.but Wednesday night i started to panic again and i ended out sending one.it was full of I'm panicking ,i don't want to talk,i don't want to come to T etc...you know all the stuff T love to hear from us over and over again(not)after about an hour i calmed down and sent her another one just saying"can we just not do whatever it is you were talking about,i guess that was what i was trying to say with a bunch of drama mixed in"i hope she will understand better whit it being put this way that i don't want to do it not that i am just scared.the more i think about it the more scared i get about it.i try to tell myself just like you all do she cant make me talk.but what if she says things.sometimes i swear she knows things i never told he and i don't know how.i really don't want to go to therapy Monday.i hope she calls me Monday and tells me we wont do it and it is OK otherwise i don't think i am going to be able to go