I want to be someone else. My T asks, "who do you want to be?" I don't know who I want to be, just not me. Someone who knows happiness (if there is such a thing), someone who can stand to stay inside their own skin, someone who is not so full of shame, someone who had their own wishes/desires and is not consumed with what every one else expects. What feeling is that? Self-loathing or truth?
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