I feel like I am forcing it right now. It is a bit of a struggle to give it the time. To make it routine enough for it not to feel like it is taking time from something else I would rather be doing at the moment. Perhaps it is indicitive of all the more need to do it. To force myself to slow it all down if only for 10 or 15 minutes at a time. I am grateful for the thread because it gives me that extra imputuous to do it. Otherwise I would likely have quit already. Short attention span here.

I had a rather stressful pdoc appointment yesterday and if not for taking the time to at least relax my breathing with a few minutes of mindlessness I would have fallen victim to those overwhelmed feelings of anger and hopelessness that built up over the hour.

Today is a recovery day of self care and kindness. It is the exact opposite of what I 'feel' like doing but I will do it because I need to. I am heading out soon for a walk in the rain to escape my brain for a while.

Be well. Let it be.