rainbow, I think it was the intensity I saw in her eyes.....and because I think there was a very real deep fear behind it for me. I think I am just getting tired of people looking at me recently with that sort of worried, deeply concerned gaze.....and the thought of people having pity on me (or a reason to have pity on me) also has always bothered me. I feel badly that she had reason to be afraid for me..........but it also helps me to know that she really does deeply care for me and my well-being.
I'm beginning to feel some better.......but I just need to crash, esp. since the little ones are all napping.....